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"You can't criticise someone for scratching the glass on a window when you go around breaking them."

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You open your eyes and still see nothing. Everything is blurred and distorted out of proportion. But if you stop and think for a while, and figure out why everything became so dark. Maybe things will brighten up again. Just a little bit of light will shine through that blurred view and what you'll see when your vision clears. Is someone that was there beside you. Through all those years.

Done

It bothers me to think that everything that happened in connected to me. I upset the balance. They always said that before i came along nothing exciting ever happened. It was dull. Boring. Peacefull.

With me its a circus. A never ending rollercoaster. I know that i have destroyed your perfect peacefull world. You remind me everytime something happens. It seems no matter what happens or where i am, It gets pinned on me. But who knows, maybe it is my fault and it is my responsibility to change it for the better.

I cant do this to them anymore.

Bound for Life

Even the tighest woven threads unravel easily when pulled the wrong way.

Just remember, it is possible to tie them back together.

Scape goat.

"Ever since Amanda moved here..." are all the words I ever hear. All that follows these few words i have sub consiously blocked. Why is it that when there is something new in somebody's life they tend to blame all their problems upon it?
I am not a scape goat. It doesnt seem fair that i am caught between problems that are not even mine to deal with.

"Yes father."

I try to exlpian. You shush me up. Lecture me for a crime not commited. I begin to talk. Freeze and concider my options. Fight for the truth and demand my side be heard or sink my head down and simply say "Yes father." Inevidably, i choose to sink my head down. I have no desire for richousness anymore.

Quote from the book i am reading

"It hurts more to have and to lose. Then to not have in the first place."